Q1: Tell us a little bit about yourself.
I’m a songwriter and performer living in Los Angeles. I’m married to a great guy with whom I’m grateful to be partnered in life as well as in my creative work. I live a pretty peculiar life, spending about a third of each year traveling the country playing concerts in people’s homes. The experience of being invited so intimately into people’s lives to share my story and experience through music has been one of the great joys of my life so far.
Q2: When were you first open about your depression (anxiety, suicide attempt, etc)?
I didn’t realize that what I’d experienced in my late twenties — that period of time when I couldn’t get up off my couch for days at a time, when sleep was all I wanted to do and yet I was constantly tired and wide awake with panic in the middle of most nights, when I felt as though there was literally no one on the planet with whom I could speak of what I was going through — was depression. I didn’t realize that’s what it was until much later, when I started writing songs about it. When I started performing those songs in public, and when people would tell me how much they related to what I was singing about because of their own struggle with depression, that’s when I understood that there was a name for that period of time in my early adult life.
Q3: How has your writing helped your recovery?
I can say without a shadow of doubt that songwriting, and music in general, has saved my life. It continues to save it every day, as it’s become a spiritual practice for me. Writing music is the framework on which I hang personal introspection, reflection, it’s how I make sense of myself and the world around me, it’s a way in which I practice empathy, and it's how I process life-sustaining connections I have with people in my life.
Q4: What do you hope readers of Shades of Blue learn from reading the essays contained in the book?
I didn’t contribute to Shades of Blue, but my hope for readers of the book are the same as the hope I have for people who hear my music: You are not alone. Whatever it is you’re walking through, you’re not the only one to have traveled this path, there are others here to walk it with you.