Hey! I’m Mariuh and I was born and raised in Northwest Arkansas. I ventured off a time or two, but always managed to end up right back where I started this life of mine. I recently turned 25, which means that I have a year to either get a real job or get married. (26 means bye bye to mom and dad’s insurance so let me know if you have any suggestions) I love music, books, baking, coffee, and helping people to love and accept themselves. I lean on the support I receive from my friends and family. Without them, I wouldn’t be able to stand tall and live boldly.
Today, I live my life with generalized anxiety, major depressive disorder, and PTSD. These illnesses of my brain have affected my life since I was young. A skewed self-image, a fear of being alone, a loneliness I could never explain, and feeling like I had no control are a few of the things that taunted me as I grew up. I was always negative about myself, but had no trouble loving others and I hated most things that made me who I was. I didn’t know how to satisfy myself and live my own life so I just started living for everyone else. This lead down a winding road of trauma and hurt. I always thought of myself as selfless, but I was just afraid of facing my own truth and not liking what I found. Thankfully, I am a part of a generation that is becoming more aware of mental illness. I learned only 2 years ago that there was a name to my lonely feelings and most importantly, an explanation and way to cope.
Since being diagnosed, I have yearned for control and peace. Some days, I don’t have any energy but I look forward to the times when the fighter inside of me can’t be contained any longer. This journey of self-discovery, self-care, and self-awareness has been an amazingly terrifying rollercoaster. I want to be healthy for my family, my friends, and myself. I strive to be healthy for those of us who are still in the dark, for those of us that are too weak to fight, and for those of us who will always continue to struggle. I want to change lives and impact the world around me… filling it with love, grace, and support.
I wanted to be a part of This Is My Brave because I want to bring a sense of acceptance within myself. I’m not here because I’m “better” or “over it” in any way. In fact, I would say that I am standing in the middle of the struggle that I will wrestle with all of my life. By sharing my story, I hope that I will begin to embrace that it is a part of me and that it isn’t the end, but the beginning of something beautiful. I want to learn how to support those around me and to do my part to bring truth and gain wisdom.
I hope that the audience of the show will be even bigger than just the people in the auditorium. I hope that the videos will get record breaking views and that more people will be reached. Maybe someone will find their own truth in connecting to our stories, maybe someone will learn how to better support a person they love that struggles, maybe… JUST MAYBE, being a part of This Is My Brave will start a fire that will burn inside of all of us to never give up. If our stories of struggle and victory can impact just one life, this is all beyond worth it.
Today, I am inspired by the many brave people who came before me. I have the upmost respect for every single person who is writing their own story and not allowing mental illness to win. I want to be able to call myself courageous, strong, and relentless. I want to know that there will always be a fight in me to overcome any hurdle. I want to look at myself in the mirror, stand proud, and say that This is My Brave.
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