Tell us a little bit about yourself. (where are you from, family, hobbies)
My name is Barb, I was born in a small town in northern Indiana but have lived most of my life in Michigan. I am the oldest of three girls. Half my family lives in Texas, the other have here in the north. We moved around a lot when I was young. Today I live in Lansing and love to travel around this beautiful state. I am a renaissance woman and wear many hats. You may find me out in the woods foraging for wild foods, or in a canoe harvesting wild rice. I like to weave birch bark and track animals. You might see me out at an organic farm tending one of my beehives or extracting honey. Or perhaps at a concert performing my original music. I also may be at my computer working on a new book or magazine article. Or simply watching movies on TV.
How has mental illness affected your life?
Mental illness has been a companion since I was in high school, and I believe in part was born from the verbal and physical abuse, the discrimination, and gay bashing I experienced from being out as a lesbian since I was about 12 or 13 years old in the early 1970s. Add to that sexual abuse and you have a very broken heart and spirit. To self-medicate, I turned to drugs and alcohol in my late teens and early twenties and became homeless for a short time after being fired from a job because of my sexual orientation. I floundered in relationships and became more depressed as time went on. For nearly three decades I struggled with my illness, going in and out of hospitals, out patient treatment, medications, electroshock therapy…nothing helped. I finally lost the best job I ever had, my significant other, and my log cabin in the woods due to my continued deterioration. I ended up on disability. Even though I have accomplished many great things in my lifetime, I wonder how much more I could have done if I did not struggle with depression. I wonder what it would be like to have had a long-term relationship or be married, something only recently possible for me. Or to have had a reasonably healthy romantic relationship no matter the duration. But I can’t focus on what I have missed, only what I have learned.
Why did you want to be a part of This Is My Brave?
One of the things I remember from my hospital stays was that we were never told we would get better, we would only learn how to survive with our illness. I did get better and I want to give hope to others who need to know it is possible to not only survive, but to thrive! The funny thing is, through this experience, I am feeling like I am coming out as a person who has struggled with mental illness.
What inspires you to get or stay mentally healthy?
Life is so very sacred and precious, and I believe we are here for such a short time! I want to be part of LIFE! I want to be involved in making the world a better place for all living beings. I want to feel happiness when I wake up in the morning and when I rest my head at night. I will not give the power to those who hurt me. I claim it as my own and take responsibility for my health and happiness.
What do you hope the audience takes away from the show?
I want everyone to know there is another side to mental illness for some of us. That we must fight for ourselves and NEVER GIVE UP on finding a healing path that works for us. I hope they feel inspired to do things they never thought possible. I would like them to understand that our stories could be their stories, we are all people who just want an easy life full of love and security.
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